Even though I thought I had been over my crush for a few months now this weekend I saw him flirt with a friend of mine and I didn’t feel fazed. I realized then that I only missed the feeling of liking someone this much, of idealizing them this much and seeing all the good in them all the time. That’s when I realized that even though it didn’t work out, my ex-crush and I are now good friends. We hang out with mutual friends often and make each other life. Just like he met someone he likes through me, I realize that I may meet someone else as well…. maybe with his help, maybe without.
It’s beautiful to think about him and not feel heartbroken. It’s wonderful to think about him being happy with someone else and not feel sad.
I feel free.
I’ve also been working on practicing self-love and being authentic. I try to do this on a daily basis and it’s been a huge part of my year of yes: to do things authentically even if they make me uncomfortable.
Today is a beautiful day.